The perspective an eating disorder has given me towards food and our bodies, is one that I’m appreciative of, and something I enjoy sharing with you. In today’s Wellness Wednesday, I’m getting real with you all about my previous struggles with food during the holiday season and how having self-compassion and kindness has led me towards finding food freedom.
It’s Christmas and I’m flying on a plane to Brisbane from Cairns. Tony and I are headed to Byron Bay for the final part of our time here in Australia.
I wanted to take time out to write this letter because frankly, I’ve had incredible nostalgia while being here, taking me back to a period in my life that while I’m not proud of, was most definitely a learning experience.
Most of you know that in just a couple of short weeks I’ll be getting married (omg) and there’s still so much to do every day. With such a monumental event coming up I’ve been reflecting a lot on the past year. So many things have happened!
Does anyone else feel like the older we get the more we seem to pack into 365 days?
MY GOODNESS. I’ve been wanting to write to you forever. And so here we are. Back to the ever fabulous, always changing Wellness Wednesday.
Let’s take a flashback to 2012/2013/2014 when I wasn’t the woman I am today. When I was trapped inside a shell of self doubt, control, grief and the constant need for perfectionism. Back to when I regretfully had no idea what a healthy relationship with my body or mind meant when it came to food. I lived and died by my next meal. Always thinking and contemplating what I’d have next. Planning ever so wisely so I could make sure to never surpass my caloric goals for the day. It’s sad, but a truth. My own truth and one that will forever be included in the story of my life.
Hi guys! We’re back with the last episode of the wellness series in partnership with Under Armour Women.
I spent last weekend at a retreat in Santa Barbara working on personal and business goals at the Big Soul Retreat that Under Armour so graciously sponsored me for. I had been wanting to go on a soul searching type of retreat for quite sometime and so when this one popped up on my radar, I knew it was time to do it. And it’s perfect because today we are talking about what’s next for Ambitious Kitchen.
First off, the retreat offered me exactly what I needed: a chance to explore my fears and wants, yoga daily, plant based meals, and a destination away from the chaos that is often my daily life.
Because the truth is, over the past year and a half or so, I’ve been overwhelmed with the level of stress in my life. It’s not something I talk about often, but it frequents my days and weeks like you wouldn’t believe. Where does the stress come, you might ask? Buying a house, getting married and running two businesses and the pressure I put on myself to always being DOING.
However the truth is, I should be less hard on myself. I really do have my dream job. I have a life that I’m really proud of. And more than anything I’m so incredibly grateful to have a community of people who make my recipes on a regular basis. I wish I could give you all a big hug.
Sometimes when you’re always on the go, you forget to say thank you to yourself for all the hard work you’ve put in along the way. You forget to tell yourself how proud you are and acknowledge what it took to get where you are. We’ve all got our own unique journeys and I’m SO incredibly blessed to be on mine.
While I really don’t know what’s next for Ambitious Kitchen, I’d like to think that a cookbook is on the radar and potentially going back to school for nutrition. We’ll see. All I know is that I can’t thank you enough for being here.
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I’m so excited to finally share the Ambitious Kitchen wellness series with you in partnership with Under Armour Women.
Even if you’ve only been following AK for the last few months, you know that I’m an advocate for women finding their own definition of health and wellness. I’ve shared stories on this blog about my struggles with finding balance, perfectionism, stress, losing my father, food addiction, ditching the scale and so much more.
I think of where this journey had led me. Where I’ve been because of blogging and how it’s shaped the person I am today.